Do you ever have a week that's just so incredibly bad that you don't believe it actually exists? That was my past two weeks.
As I mentioned before, my grandmother passed away about 2 weeks ago. The worst part was after finding out. Not only because we were all so devastated, but because of the conditions surrounding her passing. She died alone, in her home, potentially in her sleep. Her neighbour noticed newspapers piling up and they called the town administration, who then called the first responders who went to her house. The coroner said it was about 4 days between death and her being found.
It makes me really sad that she died that way. Don't get me wrong, it's sad that she died in general but to die alone with no one finding you for days... I hope her soul felt better once she was found though.
That was Wednesday that we learned about her passing, and Friday we were dealt another blow. Friends of mine that live in the same townhouse complex as us lost their 1 year old son. I don't know the specifics, only that he never woke up from his nap. When my friend told me I couldn't hold it together. I couldn't even imagine losing my daughter, let alone in a way so helpless. (in that the parent is helpless because there was no indication or reason).
After that, I needed to take the week off. I couldn't deal with the fact that two people so important to me were taken away from me. I still can't deal with it. But I'm working on getting through it.
Now back to our regularly scheduled blog postings.
I'm super proud of myself. I got properly fitted for some running shoes a couple weekends back, and they've helped so much. And I apparently can now jog intermittently on the treadmill without feeling like I'm going to die. I'm doing some interval training to help me get up there, and my goal by August is to be able to jog an entire mile. Now I'm doing about half. It may sound like peanuts to most people but I was in the WORST shape ever. I would get mildly winded walking up my stairs (okay, being honest I still feel a little winded even still). I'm still trying so hard to get into a habit but... It sucks being a single parent during the week. I don't have enough time to get everything done. The past 3 weeks I haven't even had a moment to go grocery hopping during the week. So my daughter and I have not been eating the best. I was supposed to be taking part in 'A Month Without..' with my co-workers and June was suppose to be fast food/takeout. Yeah. That didn't happen.
That all being said, I'm finding a new appreciation for the Epicure that I sell. When you're trying to lose weight, it's hard cooking without using super salty ingredients or tons of sauces. Thankfully the spices and dip mixes are low sodium and delicious, not to mention the cookware is super great. I use my steamers a couple times a week because I have this huge 'ew gross I don't want to' thing about touching raw meat. This way I can just shove it from the bag into the steamer and it's GREAT.
Wow, this totally went off the rails. I aim at a somewhat coherant post next time, maybe with a recipe or two.
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