Growing A(nother) Human

So... pregnancy. What a loaded word. It's both amazing in that it's something that I can do and be. But it fucking sucks.

When pregnant with my daughter, it was easy. I wasn't working, I wasn't actively looking for a job knowing that I'd be leaving it soon. So I was at home, lazing around, eating and watching TV. I did manage to get employed about half-way through, at a seasonal job that required me to sit on my butt and deal with the phone or computer stuff and then watch tv or play on the Internet for the other hours. So, my priorities were not many nor were they difficult.

This time? Oh God. I'm working part to 3/4 time, I've got a 2.5 year old to run around after, and it just seems like it's so much more difficult. I was nauseated this time around to the point that I actually need to take the prescription anti-nausea stuff. My clothes started not fitting a lot sooner. More foods, scents, movements set off my nausea. I have to drink 2.5 - 3L of water a day or I'm hosed. The list goes on.

But the biggest complaint I have this time around is the absolute horrid lack of plus size maternity clothing. I have one option, and that's Motherhood Maternity. And their selection is abysmal. I need professional-ish clothes this time around because I'm working in an office and dealing with the public (whereas last time I only dealt with inter-office people, and worked overnights and weekends). I desperately need some pants that aren't leggings, but I just can't find any. So I'm resigned to wearing leggings 4 days out of the week. I know that doesn't seem like a major complaint, but there are days that I want to wear a shorter shirt or a different sweater that I just can't wear while wearing leggings and I hate it.

When will retailers learn that plus size maternity is something they should have? Just because we're bigger doesn't mean that we should have less options. I fucking hate going onto the Motherhood site or into the store and seeing the racks upon racks (or pages upon pages) of adorable and wonderful maternity clothing, only to find the 3 racks of plus size clothing and only 3 items are in my size.

Obviously, the option is to make my own clothes or wear one of those belly bands with normal pants undone. But have you ever done that? It is hella uncomfortable. And I am so not a sewing clothes person YET.

Don't get me wrong, I love that I'm growing a second human (uh, maybe ask me again in a couple months if I still feel the same way). But Christ I wish that I could feel good about how I look while doing so.